So my kids are exactly a year and 5 days apart.
Pat and I have always been broke which isn’t unusual, for young people. We had just had Zaden and living in a two bedroom apartment with a room mate. More kids was definitely not in the plan. I had been meaning to get on birth control but hadn’t due to procrastination and being exhausted from a new baby. Zaden was about 3 months old when I finally made an appointment to go in and get some. Finally my appointment came.
Of course I had to go take a urine sample, and after that i sat in the room patiently waiting for the doctor.
The doctor finally came in and asked, “So what can I do for you today?” and I replied saying, “I would like to get on birth control.”
I wasn’t even expecting what she was about to tell me.
“Well I think your urine came back positive for being pregnant.” My heart stopped it seemed like and I said “are you sure?”
“Let me go check one more time and make sure it was you.”
waiting waiting waiting, scared out of my mind, hoping she was wrong.
“Yes your pregnant.” the doctor said. I don’t think she was really expecting to see me burst in tears. I couldn’t believe it. I know i know, i was stupid for not being more careful, i should have expected it. After i left i called Pat and was crying my eyes out
“Whats wrong babe?” Pat asked
“I’m i’m i’m PREGNANT AGAIN!!!!” I replied sobbing
I really didn’t know what to do with the hand we had been dealt. What do i tell my parents and family. That their irresponsible daughter is pregnant again 3 months after having her first baby. Trust me at the time my mind was exploring all my options. Pat stood his ground though and sat me down and said that there was no way we would get rid of this baby.
My mom took it ok. I’m sure she was a little upset but what could she do. My dad was really upset I think. Well not upset but worried about me,
8 months later I had a beautiful little girl that I’m proud to call my daughter. I’m glad I didn’t. We are still broke haha, but we try our best to make it all work, and we have constant help from family. I love my family and both my kids. They are the most amazing to kids in the world.